Fresh Out of Whine

While watching Scandal (one of my many TV faves), one of the characters (Cyrus Bean) told Mellie, “Your answer will define your future.”

Oh how this resonated within me and made me ask myself, “What have I been speaking into the universe to define my future?”  My friends and I often have discussions about our goals and aspirations –some farfetched and some quite attainable.  However, one thing we always stay attuned to is the scripture found in Proverbs 18:21.  “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love to talk will have to eat their own words” (God’s Word Translation).

The more I thought about it, the more I realized the words I was speaking were not words to build.  I was beginning to whine (a lot).  I would say things like ‘I only want to serve the Lord; nothing else matters”, followed by, “no lying, cheating man matters”…see where my heart really was?  It surely wasn’t on serving the Lord.  It was more focused on the hurt rather than the One who could heal that hurt.  Last year, I felt like I was all over the place –mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  I was in a one man battle, trying to understand such things like why am I in my thirties and not married; why does it seem as if I am near my break through BUT STILL NOT ACTUALLY BREAKING THROUGH; why when I try to pray, it seems so hard to do.  I mean praying is just a conversation with my closest friend.  Right?

As I am sharing a little of what my “whinery” was stocked with, I am also chuckling to myself while I write this post because here are the facts.  Continue reading